1 year…

Ugh…. to be very honest. I really have no idea what to write this morning.

My heart aches for my son…..

Even though time will move forward, and we have heard the saying that it will get easier over time… my heart will always ache for Gavin. He was my flesh and blood that will always be with me.

One of the things that I will always remember is a comment I received on my blog just as Gavin passed away. Even to this day I still cry when I read it.
“….There aren’t many of us that can comfort you from experience, but I am thankful that God can. God knows what it is like to watch your only son suffer and die an undeserved death. He stands by you today, and in the days to come with loving compassion that knows your pain. I pray that you find comfort in his arms when you need it…”

Even as I read it now tears are welling up in my eyes. I am thankful that we believe in a God who has been where I am. He knows exactly how I feel. So He can comfort me in my time of mourning and need.

Today I am willing to be open to whatever God has for our family….and I will choose to press into Him for the comfort that I need to make it through, becasue he is my Rock, and my Strong Tower.

Last night Karen put together a very beautiful slide show of where we were this time last year. It is so good to remember…and to know that Gavin has been healed of his suffering.

I just want to say Thank You to all our friends, and family who have walked with us through this season of our lives. Words cannot express the love Karen and I have for you. Your calls, comments, tweets have helped us through this past year.

Thank You for loving Gavin… and loving us.

4 Responses to “1 year…”

  1. The Avilas
    November 8, 2010 at 11:18 am #

    We can't believe it has been a year. We will most definitely spend our day in prayer for you and your family. May God give you that same peace today that you had one year ago.

    The Avila's In California

  2. ineffablegod
    November 8, 2010 at 12:08 pm #

    What a beautiful sideshow of such an awesome family and one amazing little boy. I teared up…thanks for letting us be part of your journey…I know it's not always easy to do that. Love you guys and praying always.

  3. Princess Isabelle's Corner
    November 9, 2010 at 1:56 pm #

    I wanted to thank you for sharing your story.

    Our daughter recently had brain surgery. Recently, I had become discouraged and praying for help. This morning, after finding your latest post, instead of focusing on the things that the surgery didn't help with I was able to see what God had done to heal her.

    I thank you again and precious Gavin.


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