Always Remembering…

Since December 10th when Angela was finally placed with us life has take the crazy route again.  There is so much that we need to do to get ourselves up to speed with all of her conditions.  Doctors appointments, therapies, filed our intent of adoption, had her fit for a new wheelchair.  You name it we have it going on.

But in the midst of everything that is going on, I am still amazed at the little things that will always remind me of Gavin.  There isn’t a day that goes by where there are multiple times that I think of him.  Karen and I were talking the other day and somehow it came up about Gavin’s birthday in June….and we said he would be 4… no wait…. oh my gosh he would be 5.  (long pause)   Wow….. he would be 5 this year.  This is kindof hard to swallow.  Last year when his birthday rolled around life was still kinda a blur.  But this year our heads are in a different place, and I think for me his birthday might be a little different then last year.

I think after we had that little discussion it reminded me that life does not stop for anything.  We have already passed a year anniversary that Gavin has been gone, soon it will be 2 then 3 and on and on.  When we were going to Peter’s Place last year for Madi… Karen and I met families who were at different stages of the grieving process.  Through our time there I was reminded that no matter how much time passes you will always remember your child just like they passed away yesterday.  Yes it will get easier as time goes by… but you will always be able to go back to that place and remember.

So this post is just me taking some time to remember my son… who was an amazing little boy… a fighter.. a snuggler with daddy…and a little brother to Madi.

Gavin.. I love you.

4 Responses to “Always Remembering…”

  1. britta
    January 24, 2011 at 10:23 pm #

    Just wondering…is there a reason you are no longer going to Peter's Place?

  2. Adam
    January 25, 2011 at 6:11 pm #

    @britta. Well the original group we went to was specific group for families who lost a child. But Madi was the only child in the kids portion of the therapy. So she had to be switched to a different group that meets on a different day/time and it was a mixed loss group. So she still goes to that for this year. But because of the time difference (it meets during the day) i can't make it.

  3. Lucia
    February 1, 2011 at 5:55 am #

    I happened to see your blog (it succeeded mine) and wanted to say, God bless you and your family.

  4. Justin McKinney
    February 5, 2011 at 3:04 pm #

    I know this isn't the kind of comment you were hoping for, but I've gotten rid of my twitter and would like to stay up with you bro. Could you email me a link to your facebook if you have one: justinmckinney77@gmail.com. Peace…J

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