Breakthrough…

From the time I posted my little blurb last night to this morning I had a break through… a personal revelation if you will. To say I have been in a funk the past couple weeks regarding this blog is an understatement.  Just to bring myself to post anything you think it was WWIII going on inside of me.  I would take me 40 mins to write a paragraph or two and it was just a massive struggle.   Last night I went back through my blog and read some older posts.  Posts from last year.   Posts from 2 years ago. Posts from the beginning of the blog, and I thought to myself.

 

“why did I have so much to talk about back then and now I feel like I have nothing to talk about….”

That was my thought process all night long.

Last night I went to bed and had this amazing dream.   It was like God was using the blog posts the I had read to show me MY OWN story, and that my life experiences have brought me to the spot that I am at.    See I had the really crazy thought going in my head that many of you followed me through Gavin’s life and everything that went with it… why would anyone possibly want to read about it again now that we are adopting Angela.   And you know what….that is about the stupidest thing I’ve ever thought. Because that right there proves I have been writing these blogs with the wrong intentions in my heart.   As I continued my dream God made it clear to me that the story that I have is so much more than what I am trying to make this blog.  I was trying to be this serious deep blog writing person, and to be completely honest I am not serious 100% of the time and to try an make my blog that isn’t who he has called me to be.

This morning I woke up with a renewed excitement about who I am… and where I am at in my life.  There are many facets that make me who I am, and thats what I am going to be doing with this blog once again. I have also gotten to this place where I am not about writing for other people.  I am writing for me and if other people enjoy what I have to say then so be it, and that just makes this ride all the better….but it doesn’t make or break this blog.

So Hi… I’m Adam.  I’m a husband to Karen, a father of 3 amazing kids, 1, who is 6 yrs old (Madison), 1 who received his ultimate healing on 11/8/2009 (Gavin), and 1 who Cerebal Palsy, Cortical Blindness, and a few other conditions (Angela).   I can be a deep thinker, and yet I can totally revert to acting like a teenager 🙂  So that is what this blog is going to get back to.  Me being me… and all that entails.

So… who are you?

15 Responses to “Breakthrough…”

  1. Jon
    March 15, 2011 at 8:58 pm #

    Dude…like I said earlier today, beyond excited about your revelation! You don’t give yourself near as much credit as you should. You have a story. I prefer that over any imposter version of you ;).

    And for me..well I’m Jon. I’m a 21-year-old who’s just trying to figure things out! I have a wonderful and large family, and thankful to God for them. I like keeping things real. Oh and I like music..a lot.

  2. beckypdj
    March 15, 2011 at 10:32 pm #

    I am Becky, a mother riding the rollercoaster of emotions that losing a child brings. My son has been in Heaven for three years. I also am having bloggers block. I’ve written about grief and hope in spite of the grief and now I think maybe people are tired of hearing it. If I want to write something else, I think it’s not significant enough to post. Maybe posting this comment has helped me push past the writer’s block a little. Thanks for the opportunity. and sometimes I feel weird commenting on your posts when all the rest of the comments are guys.

    Looking forward to reading the “real you”. Happy blogging.

  3. Nathan
    March 15, 2011 at 11:50 pm #

    This is awesome man, so excited about this! And it’s a great reminder to me, for why I’m blogging as well — in the end comments are great, but when you’re writing for yourself and what God’s showing you, nothing else really matters.

    …and I think you already know me pretty well. 😉

  4. Nathan
    March 15, 2011 at 11:52 pm #

    Becky, your last comment made me laugh. I kinda feel the same way with several blogs I read written by some great women, with mostly women commenting. Don’t worry about all that though, it sounds like you’ve got an amazing story all your own to share!

  5. DS
    March 16, 2011 at 12:56 am #

    Hi. I’m Duane. And I’m excited to get to know you and be a part of this journey.

  6. Adam
    March 16, 2011 at 5:48 am #

    Thanks man. It’s was so good to be able to share my heart with you today! Wait you like music? I had no idea 🙂

  7. Adam
    March 16, 2011 at 5:50 am #

    Thanks Becky for the comment. Grief is a tricky thing. And I know that people still need to hear your story… So keep sharing it.

  8. Adam
    March 16, 2011 at 5:51 am #

    I’m sorry….but do I know you?!?! 😉

  9. Adam
    March 16, 2011 at 5:52 am #

    Hi Duane thanks so much for stopping by the blog. I’m gonna make the jump over to your site in a couple mins

  10. dustin
    March 16, 2011 at 9:05 am #

    And he likes Fringe.

  11. dustin
    March 16, 2011 at 9:06 am #

    Hi, I’m Dustin…. I’m a husband, father, and tech geek. I love Jesus and He loves me.

    (excited to journey alongside you…!!)

  12. Jon
    March 16, 2011 at 2:05 pm #

    How did you know that Dustin?! 😉

  13. Jason Vana
    March 17, 2011 at 12:07 pm #

    Hi, I’m Jason…I’m 30, single and starting to enjoy it. I also work with college students and youth in America and in Czech. I’m also a not-so-closeted nerd.

    And I’m excited to see what comes of your journey!

  14. Breanne McLendon
    March 21, 2011 at 5:25 am #

    So, I have actually never commented but I have been reading and praying for your family for a while now. It has been so great to read about your adoption process. I hope to adopt some day but for now I love living through other families and seeing how it has truly blessed their life. Thanks so much for sharing! Can’t wait to continue to read about this new season in your life.

    Oh, and I am Breanne. born and raised in the south but now living in Los Angeles…working in urban ministry and absolutely loving my life at this moment!

  15. Adam
    March 21, 2011 at 11:06 am #

    Thanks so much for taking the time to comment. I really appreciate it. We are very excited to get the adoption finalized and we can move on to the next step.

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