Blessed Be…

When Karen and I were in the first few months of marriage we took a worship leader position for a church plant that our home church Morning Star Fellowship was starting in a town about 45 mins away.  I remember when were in our worship leading days Blessed Be Your Name was one of the new worship songs out there.   We would do it pretty frequent.  The words today still have a powerful meaning to me.  I remember after one Sunday morning a lady came up to me and asked why we sing this song so much, and that she really struggled with the part of the song that goes…

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say, Lord
Blessed be Your name

She just couldn’t understand how God could give something to us and then take away, and I remember feeling kind of way over my head.  I was this 23 year old kid that had this really wonderful lady pouring herself out to me. I remember just fumbling over my words and saying something like God has a plan for our lives and that sometimes there are things He give us for a season, and for whatever His reason or purpose is why they maybe taken away…..ugh I felt like that was the worst explanation ever… but it was what I came up with.   Because at that time I really didn’t even understand what those lyrics meant.

Fast forward 5 1/2 years later.  It has been just a few short weeks since Gavin has passed away.  I remember standing in church on a Sunday morning and feeling just empty.  I then recognize the intro to Blessed Be Your Name start.  From the beginning of the song I just started to fall apart.  Once we got to the bridge of the song.  There was nothing that I could but just throw both of my hands up in the air and just cry.  Of all the times I’ve sang this song that was the FIRST time that I truly felt the words of that song.  I was so heartbroken, but at the same time I was choosing to believe in God, and believe that His plan was perfect, that His plan was somehow better than whatever plan I had in my mind.

This week I have had Gavin on my mind, and on my way to the gym yesterday morning this song played on the radio.  It was exactly what I needed to hear yet again.  That no matter what mood I’m in.. no matter the circumstance I will choose to say blessed be His name.  Even when I don’t feel like it or don’t want to it’s still a choice that I have to say.  Because the moment I stop making that choice is when things will start to fall apart, and I can so easily fall into a place of loneliness and start to feel swallowed up in all the questions of Why.

So today I choose to believe in God, and believe in His plan for my life.  I choose to say Yes to Him, and Blessed Be His Name.

10 Responses to “Blessed Be…”

  1. Jon
    April 8, 2011 at 9:32 am #

    Bro..this is one of those songs that gets me every time. Love you bro!

  2. Jeremy
    April 8, 2011 at 11:02 am #

    Needed this today. Thanks!

  3. Moe
    April 8, 2011 at 2:14 pm #

    Blessed be His name indeed. Powerful stuff man. You are a blessing Adam, and I’m glad I get to live life with you, even if it’s virtual… for now.

  4. sarah
    April 8, 2011 at 3:51 pm #

    I love that song. Although it’s managed to get buried in my iPod so I’ve been rediscovering home much I love it.

  5. Adam
    April 8, 2011 at 4:11 pm #

    Thanks buddy. Love ya too man

  6. Adam
    April 8, 2011 at 4:11 pm #

    Praying for you Jeremy.

  7. Adam
    April 8, 2011 at 5:23 pm #

    Thanks Moe!! I appreciate it

  8. Nathan
    April 9, 2011 at 11:54 pm #

    Wow. Speechless. Thanks for sharing your heart man.

  9. DS
    April 12, 2011 at 11:44 am #

    Blessed is His name.

    God.

    Sometimes we call Him “Him” all the time, and we sometimes forget how nice “God” sounds. 🙂

    -DS

  10. dustin
    April 12, 2011 at 5:38 pm #

    adam, thanks for this post. spoke to me today, thanks for sharing your heart.

    this song has always been one of my favorites.

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