Remembering…

 

“…sometimes sadness is beautiful…”

That was a quote that I heard this past Sunday at the Remembrance Service at duPont.  I think if I would have heard that quote years ago I would have disagreed.  But reflecting over the past 5 years I would have to agree with that.

During the service on Sunday we remembered.  We remembered not only Gavin but all the children who have passed away at duPont. Going into the service I knew it would be difficult.  But I wanted to be there.

With each name read I knew we were getting closer.  Closer to Gavin’s name. Before you know it there were 4 names, then 3, and out of no where my face just flashes red and my heart starts pumping.. the emotion of that they are going to call Gavin’s name just overwhelms my heart.

Finally I hear it……. Gavin Owens

There is something so emotional hearing your childs name be called and to be in that moment of silence just completely wrecked me.  But in the midst of all the emotions that flooded me I remembered that little quote.  In my sadness… my deep sorrow there is a beautiful Savior who is there to comfort me.  Because I cannot do this alone.  I can’t handle this grief by myself.  I need my Savior to give the strength to move on… to move forward.

Through losing Gavin I have learned that sadness is ok… tears are ok… being heartbroken for my son is ok… because I have a God who can handle it, and He is there to comfort me, and extend His Grace to Karen and I to be able to make it through.

So I will continue to walk this road knowing that when my sadness comes, I have my beautiful Savior to stand with me through it.

11 Responses to “Remembering…”

  1. Ernie
    October 24, 2011 at 9:35 pm #

    Thanks for sharing, Adam. I love your heart.

  2. Brad
    October 24, 2011 at 10:11 pm #

    Mate…you are tougher than me, that’s for damn sure!
    I have no idea how you do it, but you are an inspiration to us all!
    Thanks for being awesome!

  3. Jon
    October 24, 2011 at 10:49 pm #

    Dude…just wow. Love you guys.

  4. Jason Vana
    October 25, 2011 at 10:50 am #

    Beautiful post, Adam!

  5. dustin
    October 25, 2011 at 3:15 pm #

    Thanks for sharing. Beautiful words for a beautiful child.

  6. Adam
    October 25, 2011 at 9:39 pm #

    Thanks Ernie.. i appreciate it.

  7. Adam
    October 25, 2011 at 9:40 pm #

    haha.. thanks Brad. I dunno about awesome. Its hard to follow after you awesomeness

  8. Adam
    October 25, 2011 at 9:40 pm #

    Thanks Jon.

  9. Adam
    October 25, 2011 at 9:41 pm #

    thanks Jason

  10. Adam
    October 25, 2011 at 9:42 pm #

    Appreciate that Dustin. Thank You.

  11. Nathan R.
    October 27, 2011 at 4:43 pm #

    Thanks for sharing and keeping your heart on your sleeve. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, and I pray I don’t have to. I have heard from others that have gone through it that you don’t forget but it gets easier. Maybe that will be true for you too.

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